“I have impeached myself by resigning.” – Richard M. Nixon
OK, so I haven’t impeached myself, but I did resign today. I’ve quit jobs before, and it’s no real biggy. But they are usually jobs that I hate or are driving me crazy, and I’m moving on to bigger and better things. Essentially, I’ve never moved out of one job without having something else to walk straight in to. Sure, the job might suck right now, but let’s not be silly!
But not today; today I left a job that I actually enjoyed (for the most part), and I enjoyed working with the people in my crew.
So why leave?
I won’t lie, personal changes in my life have been a large factor. Not being able to concentrate at work has had some effect on my performance and that’s never good. But ultimately it comes down to getting paid what you’re worth, or at the very least for the time you put in. And not getting paid to work pretty much all weekend, was a huge factor. Knowing that your phone could (and did) ring at any time and you had to respond, meant that you effectively have no life, you are owned by the company. Now if you’re getting paid something that reflects that, well that’s easier to deal with. Not ideal, but easier.
Adding to that, a serious injury to a co-worker that you feel guilty for, doesn’t help either. I had nothing really to do with it, but sometimes you just can help but think, “What if I did this, or what if I did that? Could I have prevented this?”.
But I digress.
So what happens now?
Now that’s a great question. I’m not completely stupid – unfortunately we all need money to survive – so I have already applied for 4 jobs (I like money so you have to dive in head first!). So finding a job right now is first priority. It doesn’t matter what it is, it just needs to pay money. (I think something that requires me to clock in, do my job, then clock off. No stress, no thinking about the job during my every waking moment.)
But today needs to be one of those defining days of my life.
I need to accept the things that can’t be (or at least let them sort themselves out and catch up later). And I need look forward and think positive. This is, after all, a life experience and needs to be chalked up as one.
Thinking positive means looking at my dreams. Adjusting them if need be (but not too much) and to start reaching for them.
That’s easy enough to say, but I think it requires some real thought. Just what are my dreams and how am I going to achieve them?
I guess that’s something for the next blog!
In the mean time, this is a Red Letter day. It’s all positive thinking from here. Positive thinking and hard work.
What does the future hold? Who knows. All I do know is that I won’t sit idly by and let fate dictate my outcome. My dreams of working in radio or the media are there, I just need to reach for the stars and take them!